
Do you dream?
I do, all the time. I mean not huge dreams like curing cancer and world peace, although I suppose those would be more worthy dreams, but I dream of peace and happiness. The song of the week, Carrie Underwood's,
Wasted, speaks to my heart, speaks to my dreams. It inspires me and I can use all the inspiration I can get at the moment. :)
It's raining! Yay!!!
Do you know why I'm celebrating the rain?
Because park management finally stopped giving us the run around last week on fixing our water with their patent "oh we'll send someone out today" and finally told us the truth. Reading between the lines, I figure I'm never again having water outside.
I've lived here for five years and really I've been quite content, but they changed management recently and though I'd heard tons of stories I thought terrible about old management, they basically stayed out of our business and we stayed out of theirs and all was happy. New management...well, lets just say I have absolutely no respect for.
OMG but my dream house is up for rent!!!
Downside, it's $185 a month too much. It'd be a gamble to take it, but honestly, I think I could swing it. The real problem with it is, it's only two bedrooms and I have two boys who don't want to suddenly start sharing a room and I know they both want to live with me.
More it's important that they live with me and taking this house would ultimately be real selfish on my part cause I know them well enough to know one of them (probably oldest who's really into his privacy these days) would choose to stay here and I know he doesn't want to stay here.
So I guess the house hunt continues, but it seems like an awfully cruel twist of fate to have my home become available right when I'm finally looking for a place and then for me not to be able to have it. :(
I swear, it's one of those proverbial writer's cottages. It has no direct neighbors, sits on an acre of land, has a big porch. sigh...I'm depressing myself.
Moving on. :)
The other good thing about the rain, is it has made my cat move back in. :) In fact, she's sitting in my lap as we speak. :):):) Or, as I type I guess is more correct. lol
Oh wow, in really great news, my ex has a crush on someone else!!!!
You have no idea how much less stress there is here now and how much better we're both getting along. Thank you so much to this woman, I hope you guys live long and happy lives together! My ex isn't a bad guy, I've said it before, and I'll always say it. We were just a
really bad match.
So I'm working on tweaking an older manuscript, wish me luck on that. Cause it's actually painful to want to write and not be able to, but I think I've finally come to some sort of peace with the fact that it's not gonna happen until certain things in my life settle. Moving being the main one.
Oooh, unless I went to Jamaica for a month or something. Bet I could write there. :)
Really, I think that's it for this week. I started posting on a different blog, or I should say whining. lol It's been a really good thing for me, it's a private blog I don't have listed anywhere and I just vent on it. Every time I feel anything (which is fifty times a day sheesh) I write it down. It's my true journal and it's been a great pressure release. :)
Wrapping things up, a fellow author of mine has a gift, and she shares it by giving free readings. My grandmother was psychic so I do believe that kind of git exists, though I don't follow astrology and things the way she did, but over the past six months I've been in over my head so much that I have asked her to do me several readings. (the author friend, not my grandmother. That would be too weird since she's been dead since I was 18)
She's been wonderful about it and dead on most of the time. The other day she threw what she called a one card quickie at me. I wanted to share it with you all because it's given me some hope back and to be truthful, mine was at an all time low.
You are about to see the end to a very big battle. Everything is going to change, and it will be all for the better. Cool card!
Cool card indeed. :) Have a great week everybody. Lots of love ~ Samantha